Monday, October 29, 2007
emo emo emo... haix.. i always think simple... sorry guys.. i know u guys an wei me.. but deep in heart i am sad.. i need to throw out.. cos i always show ppl my smile without my sadness with it.. i be crying for nights.. no one notice me.. did someone by my side come comfort me.. no.. to a person tat i always love and care abt it... i know u are going to somewhere.. but i still wishing u all the best.. i know u already love someone but not me.. ya.. the person u love is my friend.. but we still good friends right.. u always the one helps me in a lot way.. i will alway remember it in my heart.. i always treating ppl good but does'nt mean u should treat me good.. or i want u to like me anot.. i just think simple way only.. this is how i treat friends... so late already.. why i cannot sleep.. still three hours need to go school le.. the whole day i no mood to eat.. also good bah.. can silm a bit.. wahahaha...
Emo kid
Eileen=(
*Be Yourself~
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Useless person.. tat is me.. it had been hard time for me to endure what i learn in school.. some are fun.. some make improve yr skills.. and learn more skills.. sometime when i doing homework or doing work in school.. i feel like crying.. cos i feel stupid and dumb even the teacher teach so much and i didn't learn much from it.. i know myslef as a very slow learner.. i am not good drawing.. i almost wanted to cry today lesson.. i feel i dispointment my teacher and same as others teachers... i feel so sucks.. wasting my dad's money... my dad keeping asking me.. why u study film need to this and that even does not included in it... i say everyone have to go through before they start major... lousy of me.. what call i say.. i will be last in class... all of my classmate are clever... know drawing well or 2d or 3d... i good computer but not in models, paint , drawing and etc... i thinking should i stoping wasting my dad money and get a job and that it... even better still die lor.. since i so stupid.. living also wasting ppl time and money... die le.. my family get money from AIA.. i really very very tired... since i was born nothing goes well for me untill now... eileen u just fuck off la... no one need u at all... i am the person are FAT, UGLY, STUPID, DUMB, SLOW, EVIL, MAKE PPL ANGRY AND ETC... no one understand me.. what i want.. i need a break... i not write this make ppl to pity on me.... i just write and show wat i feel now... i really don know where i am stand in.. don know who am i... i know ppl does hate me a lots.. but sometime i don mean to hurt someone.. cos i don know how to express myself.. i always cover my sadness by my happy face.. i like to joke but sometime i don even know i already hurt someone.. hope u guys will understand... even u guys don happy with me.. can just tell me infront of me.. so i can change and improve more... i won't scold you or watever or anything de... haix... haix...
Emo Kid
Eileen =(
*Be Yourself~
Thursday, October 04, 2007
I am emo kid.. everyday became homework day.. it's since cannot waste anytime.. haix.. sometime i thinking should i wait for him a not.. it has been one year seven months ten days... the longer i wait the more hurt i get... should i give up? remember of a past of mine.. waited for three years.. in the end wat i get.. full of shits... but i rather wish him find a better person.. in my world.. i am most useless person.. cannot make any decide in life.. i hate myself so much.. being too good to ppl.. wat i get.. bully or treat me as a maid.. being bad to ppl.. wat i get... no friends or bao yin.. i don know wat to be.. i fail in relationship, kinship and friendship.. i already lost half of my life.. wat will happen next... still far.. i scare that i will be gone... cannot help those i wanted to help... my good friend haven come for five month already... i read some newspaper about some later than three months.. it might be cancer.. or some bad bad thing.. if good thing.. of cos is baby lor.. maybe my life going to be end.. if i can wish before i die.. i will wishing the person i love can find a better person to love.. to all my best friends wish them xing fu and always happy.. to my family even i am gone i always yr good daugther and sister.. i wish to build a home for those unable to go school need speical training and create funds for old folk, children and needy family cos this is my dream... and world peace =) maybe i thinking too much..
Always smile..=)
eileen
*Be Yourself~
name.~EiLeEn KoH