Tuesday, September 26, 2006
Feel so lost nowsday... haix... lots of stuffs happen.. some good and bad... why i was not told early... so that i had prepare for it.. life always so short... i rather exchange a life for my loved one... i really scare i will lose you.. i don wan to happen.. pls be with me forever.... haix... sometime i hate my life so much... sometime not... why?? i enjoy good thing just a very short of time... ppl always say that in this world is unfair...it is true??
~Treasure what you have now~
~Maybe it will gone forever~
~Can't be found anymore~
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Tuesday, September 05, 2006
What the fcuk going in house.... when i came home... it seem nothing happen.. just normal... than my dad called ask my brother and me wan to eat and he buy food for us... than we say ok... after that my dad went to bath... when he open the hp bill.. than starting scolding me.. and my brother already went out.. or else my brother will kanna more than me.. my hp bill only 60 dollars... than my brother is almost 200 dollars.. worst he blame me lor.. scold and scold.. i didn't say anything... is my wrong... if i reply him, he will say that i saying back also wrong.. wat the hell he want.. i never say a single word out of my mouth than he say that i cannot speak issit.. no mouth huh... he say he ask me to work than i say don wan...he say that i being lazy.. hello i am studying.. how i can work.. somemore i got project.. i told him.. u let me quite school lor.. than i work for you... or else kill me lor.. least one problem for you... somemore he say my hp bill high untill like going to pay a few thousand dollars.. and my brother not at home... keep scold and scold... and i just say wat u wan me to do?? than i cried... he say next time don use so many.. cut down the cost... why he won't talk to me properly.. must shout de ma... wat the fcuk i staying in this house... my mother's house is another horror house.. i hate the fcuker step-dad... hello i am human.... why my life are so so damn suck... maybe i did something wrong for my past life... how am i going to live in this world like this... i going mad... can send me to IMH.. i feel better staying with crazy ppl than my family... for those ppl are most close to me.. they know me that i has different side of me in different place... when i was at school and outside is a happy-go-lucky person... my mother house is a person that like to curse her fcuker step-dad and the mother don understand her at all... at my dad house is a person almost cry every night and getting scolding from her dad, even she do nothing wrong... when i can be a person that i want to be... even at anywhere still the same person don not have different side of herself... i wish i got heart attack or died on the spot or something can lead to dead also can... is no point waste ppl time or my own time... take me away... i not good in study.. i not good in everything.... so no point living in this world wasting time right???
~this post is not suit for Under 16 years old~
~is a hell life~
*is there a person to save me from here*
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Friday, September 01, 2006
today early the morning kanna an morning call by my mother... asking me to meet her.. so i agree to meet her... while i meeting her in ps.. i was in the mrt control station waiting for her and my sister and cheryl... haha.. while i was reading true ghost story book 12... guess wat?? i saw milo beng... i was "huh".. cos i think i reading too much.. than see wrong ppl... i hit my face... but really is them.. i was oh my gosh... i like the first time see them on street... but them with their galfrenz... but nic was not there... i quickly call jess and diana told them abt it... so funny... after went shopping around with my mother, sister and cheryl... haha.. i wanted buy new bag... i saw an imp bag that cheryl intro.. tat was nice man... guess how much?? is was 69 dollars.. wow.. very ex.. i asking my mother buy for me... but we don have time cos my step dad was waiting for us at the taxi stand... but my mother promise me that she will buy for me next week.. haha... after that went my mother place eat chicken rice... after me and cheryl go west mall buy my book... but the bookshop only have book 13, don have book 14... haix.. so i brought only book 13... maybe tomorrow go buy book 14 at bishan bah... haha... the book i wan to buy is singapore true ghost story... i love the story a lot... haha... got stop writing here.. i will keep update...
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