new thumbdrive or harddisk...
Find a true lover..
Macbook pro laptop..
Wanna to be a media manager..
Be part of SM company family..
Earn big bucks$$...=p
Don't want to be Sick!
I hate every tuesday.. to me is a curse.... i always sick on tuesday or something bad happen on tat day.... today i cannot contorl my tears.. i feel so tired... don know why... feel so sad... the sadness is so hard to explained... today kanna scold by an unknown teacher.. say that we r noisey.. but is not our fault... is other ppl.. haix... than go back class play game kanna caught by teacher... but teacher never minus any marks for me... i think myself cannot make to poly or lasella... maybe wanted go overseas and study bah... maybe this place is not suit for me.. i don belong here... or i don belong in this world... i hope i can go the past where i got a very good pal to lean on.. now... haix... i am the one who make the person to left me.. did i done the wrong thing?? don know... this is fate bah... happy time always are so so short.... i am hopeless... dumb... in my house i don have no one to talk to... even my mother not staying with me... haix... sometime tell my mother about it over phone... she will make the thing that hard for me or other stuff... better don tell her more better... me is alone... even i cry.. also no use.... my hearts really hurts... why my life is like this.... dying is a better choice for me? i also don know when god will take me away....
~ALONE~
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*Be Yourself~
Monday, August 28, 2006
i shall throw all my feeling here... when i was on the way back home... i feel the road was long untill it cannot walk finish... think stuff that run through my brain... thinking that i really have a true friend that can relay on her or him... tell him or her how i feel... maybe i don trust anyone bah... haix... thinking that if one day... i am gone... i hope that god will give me a chance to love someone bah... i think won't bah.. cos i am fat and ugly.. who wan... only myself bah... think that what is love... loving someone is hard.. forgetting a person also hard... nowday my feeling are a mess... i don know i like this person or what... or i hate this person or wat... why fate wan to play trick on me.... can't have an good relationship.... whether is talking about family or love someone... born into an broken family... grow up become an ugly and fat gal.... who can blame... myself... i wouldn't blame anyone.... one day, if i got heart attack and die.... maybe is a good thing bah.. or kanna car bang... or other ways lead to death.... ppl will think that this gal are crazy... who wan to die... sometimes i see those ppl has a partner to be there for them.. me? who? myself again... is true that i am jealous... not that got boyfriends or wat... at least there got a person let you lean on.... i know in this world, there were some ppl that hate me... maybe i know.. or i don know.... even i like or love the person... i only can stay far and watch him... wat can i do?? confress? i must crazy.. who would like or love me.... i just a fool waiting for ppl to love or wat??? in this post.. i not saying that i am despo for guys or wat... i just throw my feeling out only... when i watch an drama called goong.. the show is nice... got an mv is talking abt a guy is waiting for the gal... but he don wan the gal to be with him just because he love her when her heart not with him... he just wan her to smile everyday... the mv was very touching.... even now i like or love someone... i also wan him to be happy everyday... just to see him smile... and i will be the fool waiting for him.... btw i now don like or love anyone... even got i also don wan to say... once is has be said... the world will know.. and the person that i like or love.. sure avoid me de.. who will wan a ugly and fat gal to like or love him.... btw those ppl heard that i like this person or other person... the person i like has change... i am serious...
*i just a fool waiting for you* ~Always smile~
THIS IS THE MV THAT I AM SAYING.. CALLED I AM A FOOL...당신은...나는 바보입니다..
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hello.. so tired after the shooting... i think i will gone crazy for this week... cos i will keep thinking where is my YUAN YUAN... haha... wait one day i become siao... touch wood... haha... few days after shooting i feel great... cos that we already done half of the script... but on monday must go back and see whether need to reshoot some scence a not... at least the shooting was fun... my group say tat i like to fall down and give ppl slap... cos must act real ma... like that more nice right?? but i know is pain... no pain no gain... heard from my dad joeyee watt.... haha... i hope that my acting is good... they say some of my acting quite funny... i also don know.. cos i haven go and see... haha.. my face got "i am very funny person"... got to stop here... cos monday need to wake up very very early to return the camara... cos i always late for school... haha... eileen jia you jia you... opps... i cannot jia you.. cos my brother say i got too much you.. in english mean i got a lot of fats... haha... eileen go go go... sure win... take care..
*WHERE IS MY YUAN YUAN?? ~ALWAYS SMILE...=)
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Sunday, August 06, 2006
HELLO... eileen is back.. long time never blog le...haha.. cos lazy ma... come back from filming... i will like to thanks fatin, taufik, joeyee and simon for help us acting... without yr guys help.. maybe cannot finish the film... ya.. thanks a lot... haha.. yesterday when for superband final... damn high man... esp the mr Q.. make me wan to dance... haha.... haha.. now is around my head... hope i can turn 18.. than can go clubbing... haha... anyone wan to join me??? than i can dance the whole night.... abt the superband the whole show was damn good and high... the winner is milo peng... but soul did their best... soul rock the world... brods tat night sing the soler's song was very nice... brods voices was nice... love Brods voices... love Soul dance... haha.... wish there is another gathering with them.. cool man... and they have their own album.. i sure support both Brods and Soul... Yeah.. stop writing here le... dance.. dance...
name.~EiLeEn KoH